nature

i have a "nature", right?

i'm cautious by nature.

i'm humorous by nature.

i'm good-natured by nature.

i'm wordy by nature.

i'm slow to anger by nature.

or am i?

is my nature all the crap that i think it is, or is there just a gooey-chocolatey-tootsie-pop core of my nature, and the rest is sugary coating added on over the years?

because i'm really having trouble with my cautious nature, lately, and i'm wondering if that's because i really haven't got one, and i've been fooling myself all along.

wisdom is knowing when to listen to little voice #1 that says do it do it do it do it and when to listen to little voice #2 that says wait a minute, take things a little more slowly.

wisdom is being able to ensure that the future me will look back on my choices and have no regrets, and often that means that even if voice #1 will become right in the future, i have to listen to voice #2 so that i can feel as if i've made a "wise choice".

or at least not a hasty one, which is absolutely the opposite of wise.

so maybe i do have a cautious nature after all.

ah fuck it, dude, let's go bowling.