osc nails it

i've read lately that OSC is quite the asshat irl and in his personal beliefs. still, he floored me today with the following, from "speaker of the dead":

He had not realized how dependant he was on her constant presence with him. He had thought that he valued his solitude; now, though, with solitude forced upon him, he felt an urgent need to talk, to be heard by someone, as if he could not be sure he even existed without someone's conversation as evidence.

Wow, that sounds familiar.

I see this in myself, now. When I am alone, I want not to be. When I'm not, I often want to be.

It makes planning and decision-making rather difficult. So it goes.