complicated life

i never expected being in love or having a gf to simplify my life, and was i ever right. my life is 10 times more complex now than it was a year ago. I have trouble scheduling stuff. I have difficulty for the weekend, and even more difficulty getting away for a week or a month. i dont plan elaborate, periodized, multi-month workout schedules like i used to. i hardly ever play video games, watch movies, cook, or read any more. i've dropped my hebrew studies and i'm not obsessive about coffee (relatively).

i never relax.

i'm not complaining. those are facts. here's another fact: my life is 100x better than it was a year ago. i'm happy almost all the time. i have love in my life and it's not going away.

i invited W to consider moving in with me. i can think of a plethora of reasons why this would be good for me. i can think of a few reasons why it would be bad for me. the number 1 reason it would be good: W would be around much more.

some folks would consider that a bad thing, having their unmarried SO around all the time. maybe i'm young and foolish, but i see it as a good thing.

W's got a lot on her plate. she's starting summer quarter at a community college in a week or two. six weeks after that is fall quarter. if she moves in, she'll have to transfer to a different CC. She'll also want to get a local job. plus she'll be moving, which is also tough.

originally when i asked, i was thinking moving in would simplify our lives. it may, eventually, but initially it will complicate things a lot.

i think my concept of "moving in" was different than what W imagined. i hope that's been cleared up. maybe it hasn't. a live-in-lover is not the same as a roommate. when i say "my house is your house" i mean it, fully and literally. it doesn't matter who is paying more rent -- it can't matter. we're not roommates. if a disagreement (and there will be disagreements) ends with "it's my apartment, take it or leave it", then i've failed. if W feels like she can't ask something or change something or do something in our home, then again, i've failed.