i talk a lot

and the more i blab, the more i remember.

this morning in the shower i remembered and blabbed about the other silvia in my life, the silvia i knew in middle school computer class. a middle school slut back then was one who only *pretended* to have sex, but gigiddy giggidy goo: not only was she a girl who talked to a dork like me (back then, that is. now i'm so far from dorky it's not even funny. i'm a total bad-ass, so you'd better chiggity check yoself befo you wreck yoself) she was also the hottest, boobsliest girl in the whole school.

was it a coincidence that in computer class she chose me -- the computeriest guy in the class, if not in the school -- as lab buddy? yeah, she just liked me for my drooling sense of humor.

silvia had red hair and green eyes. lo pan would have dug her.

how did i remember all this?

it was all because yesterday i was listening to metallica (DIE... BY MY HAND... I CREEP ACROSS THE LAND... KILLING FIRST BORN MAN) and some lyrics from their BLACK album got stuck in my head. reciting them this morning i recalled that in that middle school computer class, aside from lusting after silvia, i also would leave anti-christian metallica lyrics scattered amidst the saved-on-disk assignments of the devoutly catholic spanish speaker who used the same computer station as I but during a different period. he'd write me back. we were pals.

Example:

(me)
I see faith in your eyes
never your hear the discouraging lies
I hear faith in your cries
broken is the promise, betrayal
the healing hand held back by the deepened nail
follow the god that failed

(my friend)
YUO ARE GOING TO HELL
YOU NEED TO ACCEPT JESUS INTO YOUR HART BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE
SATAN WILL DESTROY YOU DO NOT BE DECIEVED BY HIS LIES
SATAN IS EVIL

(me)
before you judge me take a look at you
can't you find somethig better to do
point the finger, slow to understand
arrogance and ignorance go hand in hand

(him)
OOOO YOU WASCALLY WABBIT!

okay, he didn't say that, but it was something like that. he was getting really upset. if we'd ever met, he probably woulda kicked my ass for jesus.

good times.