i am a zero sum game, or: if it's not one damn thing it's another

contentment in life is not my destiny, or at least, i am not destined for an abundance of contentnment.

a tweak here, a nudge there. i ask myself: WWMD? and then i try to do it.

but the tweaks and nudges must come from someplace, and it seems that when i add something to one part of me, i'm taking away from another. i try to make myself better in some aspect and end up - if i'm successful - making myself worse in some other aspect.

i try to heal one disease and end up with another.

fortunately, along with perpetual contentment, depression and self-pity are not my lot in life. a little whining now and then, however, is allowed.

whine whine whine whine whine. bleh.