quite a day

yesterday, that is.

heard depeche mode on the radio, "enjoy the silence":

all i ever wanted
all i ever needed
is here in my arms
words are very unnecessary
they can only do harm

immediately, we agreed that this was quite appropriate to us. the last couplet especially appropriate for me.

arrived at W's place, and while i was distracted by my own lovely image in her mirror, she downloaded the mp3. smooooooove!

after it looped a bit, it was apparent that the first three lines were true. the second two, though...

thoughts:
- rule 1 (fear is falure)
- rule -1 : do the opposite of what i'd normally do
- rule N : why wait?

so i said it. i ran out of reasons not to, and i realized (and said) that folks say it with much less reason. and i thought of how i act, how i feel when i'm with her, how i feel when i'm not, and i thought of how we needed a new word beyond "likealot". and i couldn't think of a better word to use than the one people have been using for thousands of years.

so i said it. and she said it too. i'm glad that i initiated something for a change.

now everything is changed, and everything is the same. but better. wonderful.

prose isn't good enough, and i'm road tired. i'm working on another mushy poem.