why don't i travel?

i know why. there are three reasons that i can ID. these are three of the things that are fundamentally wrong with me.

i may be fixing one of them by breaking all the rules, and by redefining my goals.

i may be fixing one of them now, but not in the way i expected or wanted. or want.

the third? still no idea how to fix it. i know how to ignore it, distract it, but it's always there ready to devour me without warning.

damned inconvenient. no, i won't tell you what i'm talking about.