i am sci-fi

science fiction is the art of answering the question "what if?"

i am living science fiction.

what if i were more social?
what if i dated?
what if i changed my appearance?
what if i became a runner?
what if i stopped biting my nails?
what if i skated?
what if i bowled?
what if i got a job i liked?

what if i knew that some people find me interesting?

an avenue of what-ifs has just been closed off to me. i can be depressed about it, or i can recognize that several new avenues of what-if have just opened.

what if i walked down one of them?