is i is or is i aint

I'm going there with a specific goal: to take a specific walk on a specific beach. As a secondary goal, while I'm on that beach, somewhere around the 4 mile mark, I suspect I will be making up my mind whether I want to try and get a new job on the Central Coast, or whether this weekend's resume writing was all for nothing.

Part of the reason I've stayed so long (5 years is long?) at my current job is that I fear being unemployed, but another part of the reason is that I've always told myself if I got a new job, it would be back on the CC, where I should have stayed after graduation.

Somewhere in some alternate universe, another me accepted the crappy job offer he got there. I wonder if he's happy? He's probably the one that married rich and retired at 24, the bastard.

So hopefully, while I'm out there in the physical solitude that I never could duplicate in the bay area, I'll be struck by some sort of revelation from Neptune or sunstroke or something, and my destiny will be revealed to me, and when I come back on Monday I'll decide whether to delete my resume or post it. And if I post it, I'll decide whether to ignore hits (assuming I get any) from outside the CC.

Or maybe I'll just get a cold and be sick all weekend like last time.